Beautiful Lie

Lost in the dark
Walls closing in
I never belonged in this world
And no matter what
This will never change
Alone, I fear
Hearing the truth about me
What everyone else wants to me
They want me dead
They want me alive
Regardless of the truth
I live only for the lies
To be free or
To be chained
Either way is fine
The truth cuts me deep
No sugar coated words for me
No kindness wasted on my part
No hugs for when I was sad
No kisses to make this undying pain go away
No hand to hold when I was afraid
No one to miss me if I were to die
So why the hell would you care if I cried?
You never have before...
Or is this just another beautiful lie?